Wednesday, October 17, 2012

I need to stay awake.

I'm practically a vampire these days. At the moment I sleep from about 8am to 5pm. And then am awake all night long. I don't know how I got into this pattern, but lets say it has been a while since I last saw sunshine. So my new plan of action is to stay awake till 10pm tomorrow night. Which is 24 and a half hours away and then hopefully get a normal amount of sleep. And the other side of this story is that I am going to work till then. I have a really difficult brief that I am working on at the moment. I am determined to conquer it. So the next 24 hours is going to be a workathon. Punctuated by the run that I plan to do at about 6am tomorrow before I am too tired to do it.

My new goal is 50kgs. Which is 110lbs. I always thought of it as being too thin. But fuck it. I really want it. Thats 20lbs for me. To me. That goal is one month away. I can definitely lose that much in one month if I am extremely disciplined. Lets say realistically I can get there by the end of the year. No excuses. For once, I am actually feeling motivated. Lets set some goals.

Nothing further. <3

Peace & Love
Xo Xo

2 comments:

Little Miss Thin ♥ said...

I'm glad you seem to be feeling better now with motivation! I'm definitely feeling it too :) Much love <3 xxx

C said...

HI....My name is C I have been reading your blog as well as many others who typically post on your blog. I had one of my own but I have people in my house who can keep their stupid faces out of my business and so I find myself without an outlet, more than I would like. I need some help, I have been stuck at a plateau for weeks now. Not an ounce budge up or down. I feel like you, and many others around you will understand how heart wrenching this is...I used to be a cutter and I haven't cut in almost a year. I feel so out of control right now that I am afraid I will turn to it. I don't want want too. I am a perfectly sane normal person. I don't want to die or anything. I can't possibly do anything more than what I am doing to get this fat nasty shit off of my body, and I have a long way to go. I need some advice on how to break it, or I feel like I am going to lose my shit. I can't get on the scale one more time and not see a change...please help, anyone...