Just a word of warning, this post is going to be bitchy and is not directed at anyone in particular, but HAWT DAMN heeeeeeeeeewey, this irritates me. I have a number of people in my life who do one of two things when it comes to their weight. Okay, all of these people are overweight/wanting to lose weight. So perhaps better to have clarified that off the bat. Now let me also just preface this by saying that I am generally a fatist. I.e. I judge fat people. And I'm not talking like 10 - 50 pounds over weight. We all get chubby. And some people really do like food and don't have a problem with being that size, so you know. Amandla. Good for them that they embrace it. But generally, I think that one has to have very little respect for oneself to let their health and appearance get so out of control, but I'm talking like. BIG people. Like, the kind that turn heads when you walk past them in the street. Big big people. I mean, firstly I think it is very selfish. People always tell me that my suicide attempts have been selfish, but slowly killing yourself by eating - how selfish is that? Not only are you killing yourself, but you are a burden on society, because overweight people are sicker than regular size people and therefore require more offtime from work and more doctors visits. In the long run therefore, regular people have to pick up the slack created by people who just can't control themselves. No look, I know that overeating is a disease as much as ana or mia are, but just because a person is huge does not make them an overeater. So the whole slow-suicide/economic inefficiency of being that overweight, really pisses me off. And yes, okay very thin people are just as sick, but more than likely than not, anos and mias are put in treatment, but the morbidly obese are just left to their ways. No no, this doesn't work for me. I mean. Get some help. Think of your family. Put down. The. Cupcake.
Anyway... what was I saying... OH YES. What my rant was actually about, although I feel like I've lost a bit of steam after my fatist rant. Anyway. The thing that these people do, is bitch and bitch and bitch and BITCH. And then for good measure they bitch some more about how they really want to lose weight. Now, one of two things happen that sends my head into the fucking outer reaches of the stratosphere. The first thing is when they don't understand how they are as big as they are. But when you see them eat, or randomly bump into them/call them - whatever, when you come across their eating habits its all normal coke and fish and chips. But for the life of them, they don't understand how they are so big, because they totally eat healthily. Fucking lying to yourself. And god forbid you say anything, because then you are the fish and chips grinch that stole their saturated fat and they only 'eat like this on special occasions' - now fuck me - but it seems there are a LOT of special occasions in their lives. The other thing is when people bitch on and on and on about losing weight, but they think that a hard day entitles them to junk foods. For example, someone that is on a diet and they have a hard day at work so they deserve a slice of cake. No, actually what you deserve is to put down that cake, realise that it is actually punishing yourself rather than rewarding yourself. And go for a fucking run. A diet isn't about reward. The reward is getting something that you want. It is getting down to a regular weight, being happy with your appearance.
I'm not imposing ana standards on these people. I do not believe that everyone should be a size 0, don't get me wrong. But I watch people, like I watched myself, be miserable and deflated about their weight. Thinking that they are the ugliest most unattractive pieces of nothing on earth because they are overweight, or they don't look the way they want to. Don't bitch about your weight if you aren't willing to do something about it. Because yes, it hurts you and the rest of us have to sit back and watch you make yourself miserable. Watch you destroy any hard work you have done because you believe you are entitled to have that cake as a reward. It just makes no sense to me. Whatsoever. Anyway, okay rant over. My basic point is that if you want something take it and if you aren't willing to take it, then don't talk about it constantly as if you have no say in the matter. You do. Just get off your ass and do something about it. Like voting. Don't bitch about the state of your country if you aren't willing to vote, because then you have no right to bitch, because you're too lazy to actually take time to have a say. Simple.
In other news, period cramps. OUCH! And still fasting. At 7pm it will be 24 hours. So when I wake up tomorrow morning it will be 36 hours :D :D YEAH BUDDY!
Love & Peace