Yesterday was not salvaged. I. Ate. Everything. Including meat - I keep getting guilt tripped into eating meat, because I am bruising so badly - i.e. need iron. Anyway, I feel like it sits inside you and rots. Not like vegetables or soup which move in and out quickly. Meat rots. I have been a strict vegetarian for almost a year now and it made me feel sick and heavy.
Not dwelling on the past. Today liquid 'fast' i.e. coffee, green tea, water, soup and maybe some juice. It's so early though - maybe I will go back to sleep. I definitely want to go for a run or mini hike - the weather is SO nice out.
I have read a whole bunch of blogs referring to Wintergirls. I have never heard of it... before I started blogging. And I'm going to see if I can find a copy of it. Although, I guess if I am honest. I am scared of ana. I don't want ana. I know that I am close enough to it - but... I dunno. Reading about ana, watching docs on ana... It is really scary. I worry that maybe I will get to a point with my 'weightloss' where I can't draw a line.
I think of being super skinny as so beautiful. And the thinspo that I love is super skinny... But there is something about watching these docs that makes it look more scary than beautiful... HAHA obviously the media houses are doing their jobs.
Peace & Love