I feel like so much has happened in the last two days it's insane. The good news is that I have decided that I am moving to Leeds and going to do masters at Leeds University. So I'm going up at the end of the month to find a place to live for the beginning of July. Then I'm buying a car and getting another kitten with high priority once I am in Leeds. YAY! To answer the questions, yes I did just move to London but this place isn't for me. It's really big and busy. I'm just a small town kinda gal. You know? I am trying to convince the boy to apply to Med School over here. But I can only help him along so far. The rest he has to do himself...
I have an appointment on Monday to dye my hair... wait for it... PLATINUM blonde. I will definitely post pics once it's done. Before and afters of course. I have had so much work to do, I still have so much work to do. IT's INSANE. But I'm about to finish off and then sleep for five years, but no rest for the wicked as I have a two deadlines for Friday and an interview on Thursday that I need to prepare for. Yes, it's been really busy.
The bad news is that I totally binged yesterday. It was bound to happen I guess. But if I can prevent it from happening till next week then it will be okay since I am giving myself one binge day a week. Anyway, this is what happened. I went out yesterday to a Bowerbirds show in Shoreditch and when I was getting dressed, I was like hell yeah looking sexy. Felt like I looked SO skinny. But like. Then I went out and I felt like I looked the same as my friend - fat - and everyone else. Like even though I was looking skinny, no one was noticing me. So on the tube on the way home, after already fighting a trip into chicken cottage, I was miserable and just like 'what's the point' cuz it seems like no matter how much I starve I'll always be fat. And why can't I be happy fat like everyone else? So on the way home I stopped at the fish and chips shop. All I wanted was a chicken burger. But I ended up convincing myself to get dinner for my roomie also so got a chicken burger, a battered deep fried sausage, two fish cakes and a HUGE portion of chips with mayonaise. I devoured the burger while walking home. Like I went caveman on it. I'm so glad it was dark because people would have been disgusted if they saw how I was eating it. Then I ate half the sausage that I bought for my roomie and left the other half out for the foxes cuz the whole meat thing started making me feel ill. I took the batter off the sausage - no point in the foxes having a heart attack also. Then got home and ate as much as I could of the chips which wasn't too much as I was STUFFED by this point. Then I had one fish cake and a couple bites of mushy peas. Needless to say I felt absolutely disgusting. But it was kinda nice to not feel hungry for a little while, but then immediately missed it when I woke up this morning. I wish there was a way of doing this but NOT thinking about it all the time. Also, I've been dreaming non-stop about food. *sigh*
Anyway, my epic binge. *cry*
Fish & Chips