Thursday, May 31, 2012

Feel like I've binged, but I haven't.

You know that feeling when you wake up in the morning after a big carb binge and you have that feeling in your stomach like... you're bloated and greasy feeling. That't how I woke up feeling this morning. After two days of very low intake, I woke up feeling like I binged. Wow, new issues ENTIRELY. So today, it seems as though I am fasting. I have had one cup of coffee and will probably have some peppermint tea a little later. I haven't fasted in absolutely ages, so it could be good. I also have absolutely no work to do, for the first time in ages I am going to chill like a rockstar. I got the cutest oxblood wedge heel ankle booties and they are to DIE for. So pretty. I hope they make my legs look super skinny. You know when girls have super skinny legs with chunky shoes, their feet look too big for them, that's what I want. I am going to take them for a spin a little bit later I think.

Thanks for all the lovely comments on my previous blog. I am absolutely dying without a scale and I remember bitching about this before I came to England, but I can't let my flatmate see my obsessive weighing, so that's why I have been not doing it. But let me tell you. It is SO hard, wondering wondering. Especially after a binge when you just NEED to know how much weight the binge has caused. Damn. It's so fucken weird that I get a lot of comments telling me that I am funny, which is so strange for me, because I don't try to be comic... I guess my brain just works in an amooseing way. I really want moose and food and pizza. I am almost planning a celebratory binge for when I move into my new flat, which is so weird. But I know that everyone has trouble eating in front of other people and most crazy binges happen when there is no one around to notice/judge. Fuckers. I just want carbs so badly. I may start dreaming of food again, although seriously not hungry. Fuggit.

Strength & Love
Xo Xo

7 comments:

Katie Elizabeth said...

Go look at some food porn =) I bet you can't wait til you get a scale. It will be liberating =) Stay strong and beautiful.
XOXO

WinterA said...

Hey there I couldn't leave a comment on your last blog. Blogger was acting weird. But I did read it.

Now on to the topic for this blog. I don't think eating crabs is a bad thing. I mean I always thought seafood had the lowest calories in it. I can only eat fish. Nothing that had a shell can go in my mouth. I am allergic and it could kill me.

I wonder if I should try not getting on a scale for 2 months and just do everything I can to stick to my plans. Who knows maybe my body will surprise me and lose loads of weight.

Those shoes sound awesome by the way. I love shoes but I am never off enough to wear them. Yeah totally sucks.

ednos Linny said...

I want that look with my head...I want my body and neck to be so tiny people wonder how the hell I am holding my head up lol...I love heels. I was asked the other day why at 5 ft 8 inch i insist on wearing heels I told them cause the taller you are the skinnier you look lol. Post pics of your shoes I love looking at them lol

Judith Marie said...

Hey pretty lady, show me these shoes! I am a shoe fanatic and ankle booties are so in vogue right now!

Also, carbs. I hate them. Awful bloody rot they are. Eating them as part of a "normal" diet is good but not if you are losing weight. Carbs are on my "evil" list of foods. Do you know how to get off a weight loss plateau? Cut out all carbs and fruit. Only eat lean protein and vegetables. Works a real treat.

That's what the doctors tell the obese teenage girls at a weight loss clinic that they run in some of the rural places here. It sure isn't easy to stick to coz carbs are freaking everywhere but try it for a week, makes a difference. Or at least it does to me!

WeWillChange said...

yep, food porn if a good idea(: Then look at thinspo~ Should clear all that right up!
Glad you found my blog and thanks for the comments! I love when people comment(:
Those shoes sound ADORABLE. I want to steal them. I don't even wear heels either xD
Good luck :3 xox~

Emma said...

Those shoes sound adorable and I'm sure they will look great on you. You are already skinny!

Instead of a scale, maybe you could use a measuring tape? Just to give yourself some peace of mind and lessen the anxiety.

<3

Emma said...

Those shoes sound adorable and I'm sure they will look great on you. You are already skinny!

Instead of a scale, maybe you could use a measuring tape? Just to give yourself some peace of mind and lessen the anxiety.

<3