... I just want out.
I am so lonely. I need weed or sleeping pills. I just need to not feel like this. Fuck. I am contemplating the best time to do it. I just don't want to put my family through it. I am scared that I won't die, I couldn't handle the rehab process again.
I need to find out how to do this without failing.
I binged yesterday. 61kg today. I'm sure it's just food weight.
Sadness & Despair