This is rather involved story... so I will start at the beginning. There are two sites that I have as my source of thinspo... and I look at them every. single. day. The one is Skinnyland and the other is Skinny vs Curvy. The one doesn't update more than once maybe twice a week, but nonetheless they are my favourite thinspo sites. And what was absolutely magical today was looking at the sites and the one in particular... celeb after celeb, with the exception of a certain slutty tween, I was like... I'm thinner, i'm smaller, my thighs are smaller. And trully, it was abso-fucking-lutely beautiful. Like, look I know I am not model thin. But at least I have smaller thighs than Rachael Bilson (whoever the fuck she is!). It made me feel really awesome. Then for some reason I had this memory of my incredibly hot housemate from Cape Town making a remark about Zoey Deschanel being the most perfect woman. And at the time, I was a little challenged, because you seem to think that even though I didn't want to hook up with this guy, I still wanted all the men I knew to think I was the hottest thing around because I'm thin. So obviously him saying that meant that I wasn't thin enough. Truth be told, I'm only about 3kgs lighter now. Anyway, so of course this got me thinking and I went and googled her height and weight, and I am thinner. Bitches I am thinner. Again, though not my point. So then I noticed one of the images for her was on a blog where the author was like Zoey is her ultimate goal. I was like YES more blogs to read... and guess what? It was for a 300 pound overweight 30-something mother of two. Healthy diet and exercise. I started giggling. What a novel idea... it almost seems like I would have absolutely no interest in reading blogs like that, because they don't necessarily relate to me. I mean, don't get me wrong. It's not like I need an ED to inspire me. But let's face it. We are pretty good at weight loss and I certainly don't want to read about someone who eats 5 - 6 small meals a day. And has no problem with it. One of two things happen - you starve because you know you can. Suck on this. Or you binge, because it's sad that you can't do that and still be happy. I don't know if that makes sense?
Anyway, yesterday morning I weighed in at 57... but then I binged. So back on it today. My goal is to get to Wednesday without binging. Clearly, I can't make it a whole week without binging, so now I need to try four consecutive days and work myself up. :) Thanks for all the comments on my last post. No one is harassing me thankfully. Although if they wanted to: bring it on mutha fuckers. As some of the comments said, if you don't like it - get the fuck off my blog and don't come back. :) Luckily, I only have lovely beautiful supportive people that read this dribble and for that I am really thankful. This is also my 200th post. :) And in the last week my followers are just shooting up. SO WELCOME!! And if you do have a cool blog, prease leave the URL for me. I am always looking to start reading new blogs. It's my porn :)
Love & Peace