Sunday, July 8, 2012

A Novel Idea...

This is rather involved story... so I will start at the beginning. There are two sites that I have as my source of thinspo... and I look at them every. single. day. The one is Skinnyland and the other is Skinny vs Curvy. The one doesn't update more than once maybe twice a week, but nonetheless they are my favourite thinspo sites. And what was absolutely magical today was looking at the sites and the one in particular... celeb after celeb, with the exception of a certain slutty tween, I was like... I'm thinner, i'm smaller, my thighs are smaller. And trully, it was abso-fucking-lutely beautiful. Like, look I know I am not model thin. But at least I have smaller thighs than Rachael Bilson (whoever the fuck she is!). It made me feel really awesome. Then for some reason I had this memory of my incredibly hot housemate from Cape Town making a remark about Zoey Deschanel being the most perfect woman. And at the time, I was a little challenged, because you seem to think that even though I didn't want to hook up with this guy, I still wanted all the men I knew to think I was the hottest thing around because I'm thin. So obviously him saying that meant that I wasn't thin enough. Truth be told, I'm only about 3kgs lighter now. Anyway, so of course this got me thinking and I went and googled her height and weight, and I am thinner. Bitches I am thinner. Again, though not my point. So then I noticed one of the images for her was on a blog where the author was like Zoey is her ultimate goal. I was like YES more blogs to read... and guess what? It was for a 300 pound overweight 30-something mother of two. Healthy diet and exercise. I started giggling. What a novel idea... it almost seems like I would have absolutely no interest in reading blogs like that, because they don't necessarily relate to me. I mean, don't get me wrong. It's not like I need an ED to inspire me. But let's face it. We are pretty good at weight loss and I certainly don't want to read about someone who eats 5 - 6 small meals a day. And has no problem with it. One of two things happen - you starve because you know you can. Suck on this. Or you binge, because it's sad that you can't do that and still be happy. I don't know if that makes sense?

Anyway, yesterday morning I weighed in at 57... but then I binged. So back on it today. My goal is to get to Wednesday without binging. Clearly, I can't make it a whole week without binging, so now I need to try four consecutive days and work myself up. :) Thanks for all the comments on my last post. No one is harassing me thankfully. Although if they wanted to: bring it on mutha fuckers. As some of the comments said, if you don't like it - get the fuck off my blog and don't come back. :) Luckily, I only have lovely beautiful supportive people that read this dribble and for that I am really thankful. This is also my 200th post. :) And in the last week my followers are just shooting up. SO WELCOME!! And if you do have a cool blog, prease leave the URL for me. I am always looking to start reading new blogs. It's my porn :)

Love & Peace
Xo Xo

7 comments:

Enhle said...

Hellooo just wanted I'm in loVe with your blog I discovered it last week and it is my porn I'm addicted,I've even read all your posts including last years ones.I feel like I'm finally home,here's my bbm pin please pretty please add me 28A3FAF4

Emily Anonymous said...

Wow, it's incredible that you're skinnier than all those celebs. How much skinnier are models than the celebrities?

Em said...

I giggled when I read the comparison of blogs to porn because I said a similar thing to my ex-husband who's a sex addict and porn was a major outlet. I told him, "If you're gonna watch porn XX times a day, then I get to have a scale." Soooo I found the comparison amusing...

Cammie said...

Lol googling celebrities' stats is a vice of mine as well... I wonder how accurate those numbers actually are? Pictures are always reliable though if the numbers are in fact wrong.

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I've only recently started blogging again after a long break from it :)

Lara Manze said...

The funny thing is that most of the numbers some sites provide about celebrity weight are so bullshit, like Christina Aguilera..she is so short and fat, but they say she is like 110 pounds???The best one is BEYONCE...huge Beyonce, and she is like 56-57 kg..Yeah of course...So being thinner then them is like the best feeling in the world...

WinterA said...

It sounds like you are having a awesome day. My day went pretty bad in the end but reading this made me feel a little better.

You are totally skinny. Although it would be nice if our scales would say the same thing.

I know you can make it to wednesday without binging. I know I can probably go longer with all the crap I have been shoving in my body. I mean I am struggling just to eat anything( so why am I really complaining??? )

200th post! Wow I can't even begin to think about me reaching that. Now I want to go back to your first post and read everything.

Louise said...

I love your first paragraph rant. Zooey is kind of a source of weight loss inspiration for me. I wish I was skinner than her I'm so envious!!! Have a great day :)