I have decided to create an alter ego for myself. And her name is Coco. (I wonder why?) And before you think that Piggy has gone fucken mental, hear me out. I can't be strong all the time. Even though I am doing okay with the break up and all of that, I still feel like I am weak. So I have decided that I can be as weak as i want, but Coco is my game face. She is the face that I am using towards my ex, my family and friends (with exception obviously) and my work. Coco is fierce, she doesn't take shit, she is not emotional or sad about anything. And while Coco is around. There is no sadness, tears or weakness. And then Piggy, can be as sad and pathetic as she wants. I'm not sure if this schizo little idea of mine is actually a good idea, or even that it will work. But I can tell you, that I called my ex earlier to check on the status of my site, because with the launch only a week away, I am starting to stress serious balls here. And Coco spoke to him. Even though I'm fairly certain he has already fucked someone else, Coco doesn't care. Coco just wants her site. And Piggy is only due for reappearance later this evening and when she does, maybe she'll cry about it. Maybe Coco will tough talk her out of it. I'm making the decision to let it go. And I hope Coco is going to help with that. Coco is also perfect, she doesn't binge. That's Piggy's domain.
Today I weighed in at 56.4kg. I have had about 420 cals today so far and I will probably have another orange and some tea. So about 500 total. Yesterday I ended on 340ish. So all in all I am hoping that this will be fine. It has to be. I'm sure I can get down to 55 by the end of next week. And then 50 is only a hop, skip and a jump away. I have had an orange today, about a cup of chickpeas and beans (for the iron) mooshed up and lots of tea as always. The beans made me so full. Which I am feeling right now. But c'est la vie.
Thanks as always for the lovely comments, particularly from those regulars who always comment (you know who you are), once my site is up and running hopefully I will have more time to get back to my porn. Aka your blogs. And thanks for the cool feedback on my charity project. I emailed the Afghan Football Fed yesterday, because i can't seem to get hold of any contact details for the women's league. What a surprise. So I will see what happens. I think I may fly to Kabul ASAP to go actually find people.
Coco & Piggy