Yesterday - I ate a lot of carbs. I feel bloated and heavy and gross. SO today is going to be a fasting day. Of course. I read a blog about a woman who has lost 100lbs (she started at about 300) she is also not one of us. She eats around 1600 cals a day and thinks that a bmi of 22 is fine. Pfffffft - Wha'eva! She had had a convo with some woman who was on a 500 cal per day diet and she blogged about how ridiculous it is to eat so little. My god did I giggle. I commented on it saying that to some 500 calories is a feast! Oh she has no idea. She messaged me back saying that she found out after she posted the blog that the girl has been bulimic for years. Damn, fucking, right. Because no healthy person in their right mind would ever go on a 500 cal per day diet. What we do is ludicrous - no doubt about that - BUT it is the sacrifice that we make to be skinny.
I have an exam in two days so today I am hitting it hard. Not amped, but I may have a nap because I am feeling nauseous. I also just flooded to fucking kitchen with the washing machine. GodDAMMIT! It's the third time I have done that. But my pile of laundry has gone down significantly in the last day because of non stop washing cycles. Yay for clean clothes that don't fit me. I need to find a job.
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