Thoroughly unimpressed with my life at the moment. First off - I didn't save Friday. I ate like a caveman! Which led to an unintentional fast yesterday. I got caught out lying to him about having eaten at my moms house. He said he was just worried... But then I asked if thought I was more attractive at this weight? And he said yes. Obviously. My mother gave me SHIT and then some more SHIT about my weight. Telling me I know a lot about nutrition and that I must take my own advice. But, I just said that I'm not an unhealthy bmi and that I am just trying to eat healthier and exercise more. Bullshit. BUT... anyway. I decided last night that I am going to try and be happy with 132lbs. I can't deal with this constant Spanish inquisition into my eating. How do you all deal with it? Because seriously, it's killing me.
That aside, I need to get started with this job. And exams are fast approaching. I slept for maybe 3 hours last night from worrying myself into staying awake. I need to start studying badly.
My scale this morning said 63.4kg. So 1lb up from my low low weight on friday :(, but I know that was probably just water or something blah blah coming off. *happy dance* Anyway, I think I can definitely get down to atleast 135 by this friday which is that awesome music festival! OH and my hip bones are visible! YAY for hip bones. I wish I could see a bit of rib though. I mean I can if I lift my arm. And my shoulder blades are also in hiding... muthafuckers!
Anyway. Thinking thinnnnn!!! Thanks for all the comments on my last blog. As for being inspirational (*blush blush*), I would just like to point out that my inspiration comes from the blogs that I follow. I feel like a bit of a poser sometimes, because I'm not as hardcore, I don't purge and even my UGW is not that low. BUT, I love everyone of your blogs. And appreciate them as much as the support I get. Thanks Thanks.
*slow clap* :p
Peace & Love