Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Dumb Fucking Bitch Wednesday AGAIN!

You guys must be so sick of this particular rant but I had class with that dumb ass whore stick insect with no soullllll this morning. And guess what - I WANT TO STAB HER WITH MY PEN! I swear, at one point she was going on - like you know when someone in class just keeps going on and on and on about some lame ass point that makes no sense, and the lecturer is trying to explain but she just isn't getting it. That is what she was doing - saying that for the purposes of patents - pharmaceuticals and medical process (operations, diagnostic tests, etc) are the same thing. I mean. FOR. FUCK. SAKES. And then whenever I'd say something she would chip in to try make me look wrong. Seriously bitch, don't fuck with me. SHE IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE. And as per usual I got to class about ten minutes early and she was there. Surrounded by all the cute boys talking about male contraceptives (no seriously, apparently there is a pill for men now!) and they were lapping it up. I wish she'd just use her dumbo fucking ears and fly away. FUCK I HATE HER. Anyway, while she was going on and on proving how stupid she really is, I just wanted to sharpen my pen a little and stab her in the back of her perfectly adorned head. FUCK HER! Okay next week is the last class I'll ever have with her - I promise I'll stop ranting about her then. Well... I still may see her at the exam, so you may have to forgive another two rants about the fucking dumb stick insect bitch with no soul... or brain for that matter. FUCK. Moving along.

Yesterday, I binged. Again. But today, I'm determined. Been running around getting forms and applications and speaking to people. I'm trying to get funding for my masters degree. No. Fucken. Money. I mean it's lame. Anyway. Please university give me funding to be a self-righteous intellectual! Pretty pretty please. But I need to apply to the university as well. I also set a study time table which I am going to get into after I finish writing this.

So I get inspiration for thoughts and stuff when I read other blogs. It's kinda weird. But people make you think... For example, Beth put this HECTIC pic of two rather large walrus's feeding each other McDonalds on her blog - and ya know - firstly, how is it that ladies so large will show that much skin... on film... I mean, I'm a third of their size and I haven't been that exposed publicly since birth! I also have a pact with him that if I get about a bmi of 23 he'll lock me in a room and refuse to feed me. I think it's a good trade. I mean I worked hard to get down from 180ish, so fuck it. I need to stay there. I'm not weighing in today because of my binge.

OH YESSSSS and needless to say SGD is failing miserably because of my binges. I'm so shitty at sticking to diets. But I think maybe I should just continue with restricting on my own terms. No pressure that way. Anyway. 132 by Halloween! Yes we can! :D

Another thing that I was thinking about whilst reading is how our binge weight gradually gets lower and lower and this is the indication of how we are losing. I mean for instance. When I started blogging after a binge i'd be about 68kgs. (That number looks so BIG now). Now after a binge my weight is around 64kgs. (ALSO a BIG muthafuckin' number). So I guess, as I said to William (welcome back doll!! :D) it's kinda two steps forward, one step back. We are all going to slip up and fail at some point. I mean, we will all have three day long binges etc etc, but as long as that post binge weight keeps coming down - we are doing okay!

Thanks for all the love and support to you all!! :D I have some cases to read now. FUCK MY LIFE! But I have had lots of coffee, so I shouldn't fall asleep too quick now. OH and I am starting work at this place tomorrow. NOT excited. But it's money so, whatevs.

Love & Kindness
Xo Xo

8 comments:

Sam Lupin said...

oh. that whore.
George-Sam will kill her! ...take me with you, my love! i will destroy her by spitting on her face!
binging. gah. i was so close to binging yesterday! but the fact that i am sick makes it harder.
plus my stomach says no. xD. my digestion process sucks right now.
ahhh. gah. i got down from 217 so if i just binge it away...then fuck. i'm not in the BMI 23 ranges. hell, i'm not even in the healthy range. dammit, i'm a short fatass but i will fix myself!
most diets fail. i just follow them because i feel obligated to. plus, 800 calories at one day! woot! i want refeed! ...sadly, that 'refeed' is only eggs, cheese, peanut butter and lettuce. fuck this high-protein bitchass diet.
oh! i have noticed that. when i was at 67-69kg, a binge would put me back in the 75's! SERIOUSLY.
money. x3.
i'm hungry. *tears*
3:00pm. fuck this.
125 calories left.
*sigh*
i hate my calorie-counting life sometimes. but better than binging i suppose?

-Sam Lupin

William said...

I'm glad to be back! :) I know you really do despise that girl but I can't help but chuckle a little when you blog about her. Idk, I'm a boy so I guess I can't relate accurately.

I'm sorry you've been having trouble dieting lately, but you are so right! The biggest part of this whole, frustrating, stupid, laborious struggle is that over all our weight is going down. :) I hope you do better today though. Remember, nothing tastes as good as skinny feels! Stick to your diet today and you'll feel better and be able to stick to it more easily tomorrow. :) Stay strong!

P.S. May I call you Miss Piggy? That wat I could at least thing of the funny puppet and not feel bad. xD

William said...

Oh! Also, you're right, she is an awesome grandmother. :) But she can say some awfully rude things that stick with me for days. She's just old and ignorant I suppose. (as if that's even an excuse) And as far as drinking is concerned... Idk. That's just an entire mess in itself. You're absolutely right though, it does provide a nice little vacation to Neverland, far away from reality. I guess I just don't like it because I didn't want to take that trip, it just kind of happened without my acknowledgement. Just one more thing in my life that I'm losing control of. That's ok, I'll just double the effort controlling food! ;)

Barbie said...

lmfao XD i love your rants about stick with no soul! they are hilarious XD

also, what you said about the post binge weight made me feel a shit of a lot better just now. i have been feeling bad all day because i had pizza last night (was on verge of collapse) - but it is true! my post binge weight was 2kg less than last time, so all is good :)

x x x

Beth said...

OH THAT BITCH! thats it, I'm beating her ass!!

Honor Regzig said...

The rants are funny tho! Especially since I also run into the type of person you describe!
Does your soulless stickbitch use "like" every other word?
Lol at my capcha being rental.

A.beautiful.mess said...

haha I love your rants so don't worry about going on about it.

I'm trying to resist the urge to binge, sometimes it takes over and it takes so much effort not to give in.

I have this deal with my sister that if I get really fat, she lock me up. But I think if I gain weight, my mom will be the first to notice and she WOULD NEVER let me get that big. She'd lock the fridge.

good luck on work - like you said it's money and money doth make the world go round :)

Beth said...

Fat Piggy, Thank you so much. You are my heart and soul babe. I love you so very much and treasure your friendship more than I can ever express.

I will always be here for you too.