Reprieve I tell you, REPRIEVE! As you are all aware, well some might not be (I find if I smoke too many bongs, I forget/lose days of the week) that today is Wednesday. Which means... stick insect with no soul time. So I shall start this in the usual fashion - I FUCKING HATE THAT DUMB STUPID BITCH WITH ALL MY HEART! VOMIT ON YOU! However, calmly, I shall continue my weekly rant. First off, she was later than usual today. Which was fantastic, because it meant that I didn't need to sit in class for 15 minutes before the lecture and listen to her shit stupid asshole-ness. When she did blow in she looked like shit. Her eyes really are abnormally bug eyed. Dumbo BUG EYES! Vomit on you. But what PISSED me off was that as soon as it was clear that her regular posse of boys was not attending this lecture, she made damn sure that the quiet-wannabe-popular gay boy was reassigned to the seat next to her. Is this a fucking popularity contest? She never speaks to him ever, except now she needs someone to sit next to, so she moved her books when he walked in and told him that he should "sit" *smile* VOMIT ON YOU!
In other news, the Jewish princess with the mutha fuckin' ugly shoes today wore quite nice ankle boots. So, okay, maybe all her shoes aren't FUCKING DISGUSTING, but she still walks like a dinosaur in them. As it turns out, she is in fact from Israel - so A) I don't feel so bad about calling her a Jewish princess. AND B) I almost forgive the dinosaur strut since, well maybe she's from Gaza and they only have rubble there. Haha, okay worse generalisation, but anyway. I think she gets points for being Israeli. Still walks like a T-Rex though.
And then the quiet blonde in front of me. I have hair colour envy of her, but she is one of those people who are thin and pretty, but I'm sure my BMI is lower than hers and I know she has cellulite, so I'm not inclined to dislike her because of that. She also really makes an effort to look nice for class, and hell you can't fault a girl for trying. She reminds me of an old law school friend. ANYWAY, my point is. After the break between periods, she came back to class with a HUGE mutha fuckin' cup of hot chocolate AND a cookie the size of my face. *sigh* I remember chocolate... She also took about half an hour to eat the damn thing. I was right behind her. It was empowering and really torturous at the same time. Chocolate cookies, the rack of ano's.
In other news, I handed in my application for masters today, I am busy with my funding applications (which I'm not likely to get) AND I have a test tomorrow and an exam in a week. I'm going to nap shortly.
Yesterday, I was doing well. Then I went to my mother for dinner and had the following:
- Broccoli with cheese sauce :(
- Boiled Rice with Peas in it
- 3 Halves of Roast Potato
- 1 largish serving of banoffee pie. FUCK YOU BANOFFEE PIE!
So it didn't go well. But whatever. I am going to either fast today or stick before 300. If he notices that I haven't had dinner, then i'll have a can of soup. I haven't lost or gained on the scale today. I want to try alternate between fasting days and 500 cal days. I just have to get around dinner time. Because he assumes that I nibble throughout the day, but if I don't eat at dinner then he freaks. Sometimes I get away with it though.
I just wanted to add something about my blog yesterday on Skinny Pride. I think the point that I failed to mention is that if you are heavy still or just starting out or even trying to lose and failing. Skinny pride I think is about aspiration to be skinny. I know I'm not "fat" (matter of opinion really), but I also am not skinny either. We all aspire to be skinny. That's why I advocate Skinny Pride. I can be better. And thanks for the comments. One day we shall all be skinny together :) :) We can do this.
Peace, Serenity & Courage
p.s. Welcome to all my new followers - and hey hey hey to the old ones :) I do try to look at all the blogs of my new followers, but sometimes don't get round to them. If I'm not following yours, lemme know mkay? X
|So this is me... My feet are together and I'm not bending, so it's my "Real" Thigh Gap. As you can see, there is a long way to go, but hey, thigh gap.|
|And from the side. Notice of course my nice pooch and the cellulite just under the ass. I forgot I took these pics, but now seeing them, today is definitely going to be a fasting day.|