Monday, October 31, 2011

Happy Penguin Dance

You know when something happens during the course of the day and you think "SHIAT! I must put that in my blog entry." This is a collection of those things.

Last week when I wrote my exam and aced it, then celebrated with half a gallon of wine and my body weight in sweeeeeeet mary jane, my friend came over to er... "celebrate" with me and she said that I must be careful because I was starting to look like a bobble head. And then when another friend joined she also said omg you're so skinny <insert wannabe LA accent here>. LOVE IT. Also that night the same one used my bathroom and weighed herself and said something about her weighing 67kgs. She is about three inches shorter than me. *happy penguin dance* - this is contagious. How you do it is to stand up with your arms at your sides (and keep them there) then move your hands so that the palms are facing the floor but at a right angle to your arms (WHICH ARE STILL STRAIGHT AT YOUR SIDE). Then point your feet out as if going into ballet pose. And rock from side to side and turn around in a circle on the spot. THIS is the happy penguin dance.

Then my current soon to be ex boyfriend then bought an xbox kinect. THIS IS EPIC! So much of a workout actually. My abs and what not are quite stiff today. Fucking LOVE IT! Anyway, so the games that come with the kinect are these cool interactive things where you jump and duck etc. The cool thing is that it takes pictures of you while you are making an ass of yourself. I looked pretty skinny in most of them. And there was one where I looked like I was skiing and guess what - THIGH GAP! <3 <3 <3 That kinect and I are going to be very good friends. :)

I ordered my grandparents birth and marriage certificates for my UK visa today. Now just gotta find a job and earn some cash so I can get the fuck out of here. I really can't wait. I need to also start contacting UK law firms about working for them, or something. I dunnoooo. I have worked out some of the details. Now just for the follow through. Fuck. Anyway.

I fasted today. For two reasons - 1. It pisses off the boy if I don't eat - WIN! 2. I ate three different kinds of fast food yesterday. Talk about a binge? Anyway, but when I weighed myself earlier I was 137.6, so that's not too bad. Tomorrow is the tv ad shoot. I'm only an extra - yawn, but it is a big beer brand, so that's exciting.

I wish things would work out with the boy, but it doesn't look like it's going to. And I am trying. I really am trying to be more of the person I am, but with exams it is difficult. And he doesn't seem to want to try. BUT every cloud has a silver lining and mine is that it means I don't have anyone holding me back here and I can leave and explore the world. Which is EXACTLY what I plan to do. I am making fucking lemonade over here bitches, do you fucking mind?

OH and I turned in my funding application today, so I shall see what they have to say. I should know by December if they are going to give me 100k to study next year. I don't know what I want more, funding or London. It's a tough choice.

Thanks for all the support always. And especially to the special ones who always comment and lend some support. My motto for the week: Fuck it.

Peace, Courage & Strength
Xo Xo


Judith Marie said...

I LOVE your motto. I'm adopting that. Fuck it. I'm so excited for you re: the UK thing. I'm going over there myself to work for a few months next year and I'm already buzzing about it!
Also, if your bf doesn't try, it is totally unfair that you should be the one doing all the trying.
OMG, thigh gap! I'm so happy for you, I'll do that happy penguin dance for you! Thigh gap is like, the holy grail for me.
Love you lots and thank you soooo much for all the support you've given me. It really, really means a lot.

lulani said...

Happy Dancing in celebration of the thigh gap :)


By All Means said...

I must say that's been my motto since the damn break up. I go from depressed to mad to being ok with it and back to depressed. I wish I didn't have my job keeping me here, traveling would be so nice, so I hope you get to do what you want! Congrats on the exam!

abbifa said...

next time something good happens to me I will be doing your happy penguin dance lol love it!


Anonymous said...

I'm from the UK and I'm so shocked you and one of the above commenters have found a job! Or at least have a desire to come over here. It's so shit at the moment I was actually thinking of going to America?
Any who, so happy for you with the thigh gap! The penguin dance made me laugh. Well done, and good luck with your exams.